Donnerstag, 14. Juni 2007
IM back!!!!!
Hi all, I havent written so here i am here to tell a little story of the past few days, a story of love, support groups, age, drugs,coffee, bad music, support groups (again, thank you guys, you know who you are) depression and last but not least...the endless search for happiess. in the past few days, everyone has been through a lot. Maybe it is just that time of year or something, but everyone is stuck in this state state of apathy, and confusion about "why?, why me?" Why to everything I say! I why doesnt mike want to be with me? why don't i see this TERRIBLE side to Wil that the whole world warns me about? Why won;t Eileen quit being blind and see that Phil would treat her better then any other guy she ever met? Why can't erin just combined her two lovers and make Mr. Perfect.? I just don;t understand this. I love Mike and Want to be with him, and we just used to have so much fun together and i don;t know what happened. Everything used to be perfect. We lived to gether, we were always going out, party, camp, movies, he he he drugs, our group of friends were sooo tight knit, and what did i have to do...go off with some guy (Wil) who made false promises, and lead me to believe thateverything i thought was happy in my relationship with mike was bulshit.....and I am not putting that off on Wil that is entirley my fault, by all meen, I fucked up, I was blinded, and stupid. Wil moved away so now I dont even have wil around to confide in now that mike doesnt want to be wihtm e....and i know "there are soo many fish in the sea" "Men are a dime a dozen....whatever!" I fell in love with mike and lived a happy, strong, passionate, fun two years with him, just to let it get ruined by someone promising me materialistc bulshit! i deserve a raise!!!!! yes, a deserve at least $1.00 raise, at least! i am reliable, always come in when I am supposed to ,always come in to cover someone, kiss everyone ass...even Kurt! i love my job and the people I work with, but this pay is just uncalled for! i meen come on, i spend to much time in that damn shop, and get harrassed (sexually) by way to many customers to be putting up with the little amount i get. i want everyone to be happy, why can';t we all just live in bliss, without any hassles? i can't stand watching the people i care about in sad depressing moods, it tears at my heart sr=trings it really does. I want to help, and i hope that "coffee shop support group" helps, because it msure helps me to vent to somebody who will losten and reply back with nice, supportive comments. I love you all, you are truly the best, and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise, or i wil hurt them, im not kidding.thanks again!!!! MUUUAAAHHH....kiss kiss
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awwwwww, shyla. you are going to make me cry. *sniff* i love you mucho. i hope everything works out the way we want it to, cos we deserve it. we're the best. ;D see you tomorrow night. wear something sexy. hehehe. kidding. yeah, sexual harassment blows, but we're gonna kick all the perverts in their old decrepit nuts. okay, see you soon! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3.
it will all get better soon.
Sheila... you rock. Doesn't it suck being a caring and compassionate person, everything around that goes wrong brings you down doesn't it? Well, that's what happens to me sometimes. Even when things go good for me, I still get bummed when my friends aren't doing so well. But... I think that everything will turn out allright in the end. When Mike comes around, when she comes around, when everyone elses problems straighten out. It sounds stupid to put so much faith in the lyrics of a song, but sometimes you can look to a song for inspiration. Whenever something goes wrong for me, I always think of an AFI song (yeah, I'm obsessed with them, so what). Anyways, one of the lines is 'strength through wounding.' I think that you have to look at something going wrong as an opportunity to better yourself in the long run. It's not that easy to see it that way when it happens, but just know that you always have friends to back you up.I seriously don't know why mike doesn't want to be with you, but hey, it's his loss right? Just don't think that it's your fault(I think that you've given me this advice before)."Why won't Eileen quit being blind and see that Phil would treat her better then any other guy she'd ever met?" Thank you for saying that. It's nice to know that someone (and I know you've all been behind me on this) cares. I hope she does indeed come around. At least to give me a chance.Cheer up Sheila, everything will work out.
Shyla, ya'll deserve the BEST dude. We all do. And we should get it, cos like, we all work shit jobs and get bullshit from customers and are basically tip whores.
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