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Thanks to Ardin Bardin i made it home quickly enogh to meet mr driver man. (No thanks to Mike, who did take me out to dinner to apologize later this nite, but still flaked like an asshole...but who came throgh to save the day...la da da...ARDIN BARDIN!!!!!) I drove for three hours straghit, my booty went numb. Driver Man was rude and smelt and talked to much about lame shit. I found my self asking "why are there so many dumb shits in this world? it really is a pity" This is while i was doing butt clenches just to keep the circulation moving, ya know? but i guess thats what i get for being two years late on my driving class thing! Anyways, nothing else to exciting, i get to work with Alie tomorrow!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!! Im so excited...ha ha ha ha ha, how mundane and boring can one person be, honestly. would it really hurt to have a little personality? Im sorry, that was rude, but need to be said. I am sure others will vouch for that though....Ardin bardin? Houses in hawaii are cheap.....reallly cheap. like $80,000 for a 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom, one acre property, nd the cutest little houses....where as the house I live in is tha samer space, but would sell for $300,000!!!!! Lets all move to Hawaii, whatta ya say?

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Well, mike came to me to let off some steam. I guess he saw stephanie, the girl he likes up on some other guy after prom at a party. i felt sorry for him. even though you don;t go to your Ex to complain about the new girl, i couldnt complain because i like Dave.....I meen what? of course i don't, why would id like some one who is so perfect in everyway shape and form? Kerry is jealous that i spent time with dave. but wait and see. Dave asked me to go see star wars the day it opened because his friend is the manager of the roxy and are letting us in...he he he. i don't even like star wars!!!!!!!!! but whatcha gonna do?what will i do with out Erin up in the Deaf Dog mix? i swear they (management) like to torture me as much as possible, now that shit ain't cool. next thing i know, they will transfer phil, and then make kurt and I work together! Who the hell is going to work fridays with me? AHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Why oh Why????

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today was the best, and I shall savor it forever.first a formost we won our game!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes, believe it or not we actually won., only by one point, but we won, and we deserved it. We have the best team. I was totally distracted cause dave was there and he ios so damn cute and sweet, i kept thinking "okay, he is watching me, do i look okay?"And then after the game, Me, Dave and Natalie went to Daves freinds house, and he took us to the Cantina at 11:00. it was sooo cool. we went up to the top where all the dancing was and we got in (natalie and i and dave cause we are NOT yet 21) and got our hands stamped and all that good stuff. And i bought drinks and had fun, and danced, and partying and Dave is the best! I never thought that I would actually find a decesnt man in this crazy world! the only downfall....Kerry and Mike will be upset if i pursue a realtionship with Dave. and Segia, dave Ex, is coming into town in a week! eewwwwww.....but I decided not to stoop down to the level of jealousy, cause i am far to good for that. ha ha ha yeah right, when she steps foot in santa rosa, my heart is going to be pounding with jealousy. anyways......that was super fun, and we both really like each other. He said "you look really good tonite" ahhhhhh! how cute!alright, it is bed time

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I really don't like the comment that beth got. I want to beat that person up! I had fun tonite. I hung out with Kerry Berry and Dave (mmm...yummy)I meen what? well, we went to a little shin dig...it sucked then went to Pihl's house in Glen Ellen. And Dave an I were on the porch having a ciggarret and he was all: DAVE:" So this might sound weird and awkward...and if you don't want to that cool...but maybe I could give you my number and if you want we could hang out sometime"SHEILA: " Yeah, sure" ***I think your hot, talented, and a sweetheart and I want to bear your childeren****so we exchanged numbers, and we are going to a show at ssu, and maybe to the city. he is super cute and sooooooo sweet and cool. extremly likeable. but so is joe, and i like joe, alot. Wil is NOT likeable, Wil is unlikeable! Mike is in between, it takes a certain personality to like mike.So thats my story. Joe came into work today on his break all dressed in his nice suit. he looked yummy lookin' all ritzy! he just made a new CD. ahhh, more Ani DiFranco/Kurt Cobain/Cat stevens/Garth Brooks Erin and Beth will love that, hehehehehewell it is late, i best go nite nite now

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Well, here we go.....Wil dropped into town. totally unexpected. I thouhgt that he was supposed to be in Long beach for ever.....but no, he said he missed me and had to come home. LIAR! he is really doing a show in San Francisco on friday, and decide to some to good old santa rosa as a little detour. He is such a freak! I have a lot of strong feelings for him,. but can no longer persue a relationship with him, he has his music life, and long beach, and I have.....well, my life and they just don't click! But we decided that being friends would work out for the best. JUST FRIENDS! Mike spent the nite last nite....i meen what? who? yes, I am naughty, i am giving in to all that is evil on this green earth. I felt i owed him being able to sllp next to be for making him cry earlier that nite...but that is a different story all together. I am now opfficially a memeber of Stan Bennenetts health club!!yeeee-haaa! I am gonna get my self in shape! Erin and Bethlehem Georgia did done signed up a while ago, and recruited me! It was fun. and before that we wnet to go sit in the coffee shop while Philbert and Quinn worked....what? while Quinn worked? I worked with Quinn today, an odd fella if I could say so myself. He enjoys talking ALOT about Ierland.....he he he Erin, Arent you Irish? He is cool i guess, I don't think that he likes working with me, but oh well, what ya gonna do? Tommorow is friday and i get to work at 1:00 to 6:00 with Miss. Ardin Bardin.....and then is is weekend time, my favorite time of the week (besides when the british guys comes in every morning in the coofee shop)The british guy does have a wife (im am crying as i write this) he made a comment to Quinn today about his wife....boo fucking hoo! oh well. Jo came in for two seconds today and i was in a bad mood so he left. That made me sad, cause him comming to visit everyday feels good and happy, and i scared him away with my bad day vibes. Soccer this weekend.....yee-ha! we will win, for this i am sure. We have to, because we (some) practiced and got there game on, ya know. Life is moving by super fast, it is already May!!!!!!! wasnt christmas like two weeks ago or something?

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Hi all, I havent written so here i am here to tell a little story of the past few days, a story of love, support groups, age, drugs,coffee, bad music, support groups (again, thank you guys, you know who you are) depression and last but not least...the endless search for happiess. in the past few days, everyone has been through a lot. Maybe it is just that time of year or something, but everyone is stuck in this state state of apathy, and confusion about "why?, why me?" Why to everything I say! I why doesnt mike want to be with me? why don't i see this TERRIBLE side to Wil that the whole world warns me about? Why won;t Eileen quit being blind and see that Phil would treat her better then any other guy she ever met? Why can't erin just combined her two lovers and make Mr. Perfect.? I just don;t understand this. I love Mike and Want to be with him, and we just used to have so much fun together and i don;t know what happened. Everything used to be perfect. We lived to gether, we were always going out, party, camp, movies, he he he drugs, our group of friends were sooo tight knit, and what did i have to do...go off with some guy (Wil) who made false promises, and lead me to believe thateverything i thought was happy in my relationship with mike was bulshit.....and I am not putting that off on Wil that is entirley my fault, by all meen, I fucked up, I was blinded, and stupid. Wil moved away so now I dont even have wil around to confide in now that mike doesnt want to be wihtm e....and i know "there are soo many fish in the sea" "Men are a dime a dozen....whatever!" I fell in love with mike and lived a happy, strong, passionate, fun two years with him, just to let it get ruined by someone promising me materialistc bulshit! i deserve a raise!!!!! yes, a deserve at least $1.00 raise, at least! i am reliable, always come in when I am supposed to ,always come in to cover someone, kiss everyone ass...even Kurt! i love my job and the people I work with, but this pay is just uncalled for! i meen come on, i spend to much time in that damn shop, and get harrassed (sexually) by way to many customers to be putting up with the little amount i get. i want everyone to be happy, why can';t we all just live in bliss, without any hassles? i can't stand watching the people i care about in sad depressing moods, it tears at my heart sr=trings it really does. I want to help, and i hope that "coffee shop support group" helps, because it msure helps me to vent to somebody who will losten and reply back with nice, supportive comments. I love you all, you are truly the best, and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise, or i wil hurt them, im not kidding.thanks again!!!! MUUUAAAHHH....kiss kiss

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I just took one of phils personality tests and it said that I was a terrible person, that damn lieing test, they don't tell the truth...im not vain, and crazy, unreliablbe...or am I, he he he. I had fun list nite, got a little hurt In "the pit" (during Jimmy Eats World, can you imagin?)I now greatly appretiate the non-moshers . Green day fucken rocked and should have has Blink open for them, but what are ya gonna do? They made a comment about Santa Rosa! Yes! It was uper fun...Thank you all for bringing me, lets do warp topur next and we can all hold hands and crowd surf. it vill bea zupar fun, yea? Mike actually made the inititive to call ME last nite when i got out of the concert, he is down south at a music festival (he is seeing chillie peppers, bijork, oaisis, J-5, foo-fighters, jack johnson, G-love, chemical brothers, and Soooo much more) am i jealouse of that? oh no whay would i be jealouse of him see all those bands and camping out in nice warm 80-90 degree weather....what , jealous? anyways, he called to see if i had fun at my concert and to see if i was safe....yea! he really does care....maybe we cpuld get back to gether, or maybe I shouldnt get my hopes up.

Boys are mean...well, most of them

i just got off work and mike and i were chillen, when we got on the topic of this new girl (Stephenie, phil, we both hate a stephanie)that he has been hanging out with, And i said I was jealous, and we got in a heated argumant, and like a child, he storms out of the house. Now what a little shit is that? boys are just down right mean...right girls? Except you phil, your not mean, I don't think you have a mean bone in your body. So now i sit here sad, with no boy, wil is gone far, far away and mike is poop head. Today cute musician guy, who thinks his music is a mix of Kurt Cobain and Cat stevens (I beg to differ)asked if i would like yo on a hike with him...he is super cute, but kinda older then I...oh well, if lolita can so shall I....he he he

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yello all diss is Shyla Mae speecing. Ardin bardin set myself up on this live jounal. i am so exited i can hardly contain myself. i have heard so much about this that i had to check it out for myself. Mike, my ex- boyfriend is a dick...and so is Wil...my other ex. They enjoy keeping me around, just to jerk me around, and the sad thing is that I am lame enough to stick around! Wil just moved to L.A. yesterday cause he got signed to a record label, he wanted me to move with im, but i freaked out...backed out at the last minute. Some say it was a smart choice (those would be the people that know Wil) others are like "What the hell are you thinking?!? You could have lived the high life...he he he he" Anyways...he called me today to tell me he got to his NEW home in L.A. safly. Honestly i don't care, cause he doesnt want anything to with me....or does he? i love the people I work with (an exception to Kurt, he is the fucking devil)They are just so supportive to your personal problems. i couldn't have been blessed with a better group of people. And we are going to see Green Day, Blink, Romeos Dead and others and We are going to have SSOOOOOOOOO much fun! Erin and i are going to find our new boyfriends?husband there and they are going to take us aways (cause we are bring our luggage) right now I am eating gushers with Erin and listening to the White Stripes...Wil has this album...not that I care or anything...but... Well i don't really have anything else to say...but goodnite.