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IM back!!!!!

Hi all, I havent written so here i am here to tell a little story of the past few days, a story of love, support groups, age, drugs,coffee, bad music, support groups (again, thank you guys, you know who you are) depression and last but not least...the endless search for happiess. in the past few days, everyone has been through a lot. Maybe it is just that time of year or something, but everyone is stuck in this state state of apathy, and confusion about "why?, why me?" Why to everything I say! I why doesnt mike want to be with me? why don't i see this TERRIBLE side to Wil that the whole world warns me about? Why won;t Eileen quit being blind and see that Phil would treat her better then any other guy she ever met? Why can't erin just combined her two lovers and make Mr. Perfect.? I just don;t understand this. I love Mike and Want to be with him, and we just used to have so much fun together and i don;t know what happened. Everything used to be perfect. We lived to gether, we were always going out, party, camp, movies, he he he drugs, our group of friends were sooo tight knit, and what did i have to do...go off with some guy (Wil) who made false promises, and lead me to believe thateverything i thought was happy in my relationship with mike was bulshit.....and I am not putting that off on Wil that is entirley my fault, by all meen, I fucked up, I was blinded, and stupid. Wil moved away so now I dont even have wil around to confide in now that mike doesnt want to be wihtm e....and i know "there are soo many fish in the sea" "Men are a dime a dozen....whatever!" I fell in love with mike and lived a happy, strong, passionate, fun two years with him, just to let it get ruined by someone promising me materialistc bulshit! i deserve a raise!!!!! yes, a deserve at least $1.00 raise, at least! i am reliable, always come in when I am supposed to ,always come in to cover someone, kiss everyone ass...even Kurt! i love my job and the people I work with, but this pay is just uncalled for! i meen come on, i spend to much time in that damn shop, and get harrassed (sexually) by way to many customers to be putting up with the little amount i get. i want everyone to be happy, why can';t we all just live in bliss, without any hassles? i can't stand watching the people i care about in sad depressing moods, it tears at my heart sr=trings it really does. I want to help, and i hope that "coffee shop support group" helps, because it msure helps me to vent to somebody who will losten and reply back with nice, supportive comments. I love you all, you are truly the best, and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise, or i wil hurt them, im not kidding.thanks again!!!! MUUUAAAHHH....kiss kiss

I just took o...

I just took one of phils personality tests and it said that I was a terrible person, that damn lieing test, they don't tell the truth...im not vain, and crazy, unreliablbe...or am I, he he he. I had fun list nite, got a little hurt In "the pit" (during Jimmy Eats World, can you imagin?)I now greatly appretiate the non-moshers . Green day fucken rocked and should have has Blink open for them, but what are ya gonna do? They made a comment about Santa Rosa! Yes! It was uper fun...Thank you all for bringing me, lets do warp topur next and we can all hold hands and crowd surf. it vill bea zupar fun, yea? Mike actually made the inititive to call ME last nite when i got out of the concert, he is down south at a music festival (he is seeing chillie peppers, bijork, oaisis, J-5, foo-fighters, jack johnson, G-love, chemical brothers, and Soooo much more) am i jealouse of that? oh no whay would i be jealouse of him see all those bands and camping out in nice warm 80-90 degree weather....what , jealous? anyways, he called to see if i had fun at my concert and to see if i was safe....yea! he really does care....maybe we cpuld get back to gether, or maybe I shouldnt get my hopes up.